Friday Results

Well, the results are in! YAY! I don’t need surgery. My doctor’s appointment was a 8:15AM on Friday and the Dr. pulled up the CT scan and said it showed now sign of a mass. So, he poked around at my shoulder again, and told me the physical therapy would be my option! Yes! Exactly what I was hoping for in the first place.

I walked down the hallway to register to meet with the therapist and told them that I was going to be out of town for the next two weeks. She asked if she could see me today. I said sure, but my son has an appointment at 1pm. They saw me at 11:30am.
My appointment with the therapist was long! Especially because I had to bring Bentley. After lots of moving this way and that way, arms up and down, the therapist concluded that what I am feeling in my shoulder is the top of my scapula. My bone has shifted due to lack of muscle my left side. He said that nursing has probably been the biggest culprit, because you are hunched over all the time and lets face it your chest is heavier. So, all that to say, I get massage therapy and physical therapy for the next 3 months!
Bentley’s echo went well. He was scared at first but calmed right down. We don’t have any results for that!

CT Scan

My scan went really fast and really well! I was so grateful that they didn’t have to do an IV for contrast! That is answer to prayer! The images were good enough to be sent to the doctor. So, on Friday I will find out the results of the scan. Now is the fun part… waiting :)

And I just checked my dear friend Jess’s blog and she had this posted for today! It is perfect for my situation :) Thanks Jess :)
“In those moments when you are caught, you can rest. Don’t give way to panic. Don’t give into doubt because this is not what you would have planned…You are waiting because there is a plan. You are waiting because your life is under the control of One who is wise and good. You can rest, not because you know what is happening, but because you know the One who is in control of what is happening right now. ” Paul Tripp

She laughs at the time to come…

Well, if you had seen me the past few days you’d think I was a chicken with my head cut off. I feel like this week started and ran away from me!
Monday was a relatively normal day, with planning for the week!
Tuesday: afternoon appointment at the Peds office. CLEAR! Good news.
Wednesday: Sewing lessons, afternoon Nephrology appointment, running around to different pharmacies to fill Rx.
Thursday: Went to one pharmacy– given wrong info, went to the other side of town. They can fill it but it won’t be ready until 3:00PM— it’s 10AM! OKAY, do a couple of errands, and sewing lessons. Then my Dr. appointment for my shoulder. Get home, eat dinner and go to a quick photo shoot!
Friday: Marseille’s photo shoot. Minute clinic for a UTI, then grocery shopping. Whew!
It has been a busy week, but God has been encouraging us so much through our care group! We love them so much and are so grateful for them!
Well, here is the deal with my shoulder. Just before I was pregnant with Bentley, I got a spasm in my shoulder. It wasn’t too bad, but it was a constant tick. Then it sort of went away in between pregnancies and then came back worse with Marseille. Since then it gets bad only when I work it too hard. About a month ago, I was massaging my neck and shoulders and notice a REALLY hard large knot in my left shoulder. I had Danny feel it and he wanted me to get it check out. By the time I finally had a chance to get it check out, Bentley and Marseille got sick (the wheezing and ear infections!) and I put it on hold until they got better.
So, I finally got to the Dr. yesterday. I told him about the knot and he thought I should get a CT scan, so that way he could better tell what exactly it is and where to direct me. At first he wanted to refer me to a general surgeon, but he brought in another Dr. and he looked at it and say it definitely is something that needs to be looked into and taken care of. His exact words, “Whoa, that is really hard bro!”
The mass is hard and about the size of a golf ball. It’s tender to the touch and even more so now because people have been poking around at it. Otherwise, the actual mass doesn’t hurt, but my neck, collar bone and back are very sore. When I lift my arm it feels like my circulation is being cut off in my arm to my hand. It’s not really pleasant trying to care for two small children with my arm being out of commission.
I’m really hoping and praying that the CT scan will show what it is. I was really hoping that it was just that my muscle was in a knot and I was going to need physical therapy, but it’s looking like surgery is going to be my option.
When I left the appointment and sat down in the car, my eyes welling with tears, I thought, “Really God, I feel like you are crushing me. I’m not sure why all these things are happening at once. I know that you are good, but I’m struggling right now.” I really wasn’t struggling with the fact that there is something wrong or that I have to have surgery. I was struggling with the inconvenience of it all. How am I going to take care of my family, how am I going to run the half marathon that I paid for, how am I going to remember to give Bentley and Marseille their medicine everyday twice a day, how am I going to be in a wedding, how, how, how? I stopped thinking, put on “Come Weary Saints” and cried.
He offers the peace that you yearn to know
Hide away in the love of Jesus.
My life is not peaceful right now, but I have peace with God and that is more important than any trial in my life.
After I regained composure, I called Danny to let him know the results, which were not much! He immediately encouraged me and asked if I was okay with everything. I was so grateful and I was okay, esp. since he asked.
My CT scan is scheduled for Tuesday 8/24, if you think about it please pray that they find exactly what it is and they know what to do about it and even that God would heal me!
Well, all I can do is laugh (and cry) at our current situation! I have today and am not guaranteed tomorrow. Another thing that I’m really grateful about is that we already have our vacation set up. We might not have taken it with all that has been going on!
This is my verse: Psalm 119:67
Before I was afflicted I went astray,
but now I keep your word.

The more God uses suffering and affliction, the more I speak truth to myself, and I couldn’t be more grateful!

Every Day
By Joel Sczebel and Todd Twining
As recorded on Come Weary Saints

In Your grace, You know where I walk
You know when I fall
You know all my ways
In Your love, I know You allow
What I cannot grasp
To bring You praise

Thank You for the trials

For the fire, for the pain

Thank You for the strength

Knowing You have ordained

Every day

Your great power is shown when I’m weak
You help me to see
Your love in this place
Perfect peace is filling my mind
And drawing my heart
To praise You again

In my uncertainty, Your Word is all I need
To know You’re with me every day (repeat)

© 2008 Sovereign Grace Worship (ASCAP)/Sovereign Grace Praise (BMI)

Trip to the Post Office

Today, we had to run to the post office to mail an order of dresses and a package to Amy. After getting everything in their boxes and during our wait for the postal worker, Bentley was VERY busy… getting into all the greeting cards and sale items. While waiting there were people coming in and out dropping letters into the mail drop box.

Bentley noticed them and asked, “What’s that?”
Me: A mail drop box. People put their mail in it.
Bentley twirling as he spoke, “Humm. That’s funny!”

What a silly boy! It was pretty funny in person because you could see that he thought he was being pretty clever :)

Sewing Lessons

I’m so excited for this project. I’ve been giving sewing lessons to my sweet little friend Abbi. After a month of lessons she finished a quilt! This is her first project and I’m so proud that she pushed through and made this quilt. Great job, Abbi :) Abbi kept this project a surprise from her mom, and at the last minute we decided to put a family picture right in the middle of it. This quilt is made from all the children’s receiving blankets. What sweet memories this quilt will have :)

It’ August!!

I cannot believe how quickly time is flying. We have some exciting stuff in life going on!

Two weekend’s ago we run up to Steve and Meghann’s to help out for the weekend. I had a great time hanging out with my sister in law, and the guys got a lot done. So, it was a successful weekend.
Last weekend, in the midst of everyones sickness, we switched Bentley and Marseille to the bigger room, so now they have lots of room for their “room time”.
Bentley is in his “big boy” bed and is getting ready to potty train. D-day is next Monday! He REALLY enjoys his underwear. It actually kind of weird. Hopefully, it’s a good motivator!
Marseille if finally eating solid foods and taking a sippy cup. She is getting better at drinking, but is still not drinking enough to ween. I’m so excited for her because she is taking more and more steps. It’s looking like in the next month we’ll have another walker!! She is also in the crib now, instead of a pack an play.

So, the kids are moving on up! It’s sad and exciting to see their changes and new stages!
We have booked our first FAMILY vacation in Charleston. We are SO excited about this. They were running some great deals and we were able to find a king suite with a separate bedroom in our price range! God is so good. Danny and I are really glad that we won’t have to go to bed at 7:30pm too!

Recently, we have also been featured on two blogs. Danny and I on the Romantic Vineyard and my aprons on La Buona Cucina. Regular date nights have been reinstated and my business is started!

Looking back this year started quickly and is ending even quicker! I can’t believe that I’m already beginning to plan for Christmas!

Here is a little video of lunch time a couple of weeks ago: